Trish's Dish Dishin' the Goods!

"Our minds are as different as our faces. We are traveling to the same destination...Happiness...But few are going by the same road."

Charles Caleb Colton

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To Be or Not To Be

I read a Facebook status one day that said, "When one is content, nothing phases you". Everything we read and experience is merely our own perception based on our beliefs and programming and that status got me to thinking. What does the word contentment mean to me?

The dictionary definition is "a state of contended, satisfaction, ease of mind". To me when I hear that word I translate it as bored, settled, compromising and ok with the status quo. Anyone that knows me understands that I thrive on a constant state of creating change, I can be content for only a very short period of time - enough time for a rest - then it's up and at 'em!

See, I want to be phased for if i'm not, I'm oblivious to my surroundings. I want the world to keep awakening me to new experiences and moving me forward into new expressions of who I am. Sometimes I'm envious of those that know how to be still - I'm told it can be a very calming experience. Although I take pleasure in the moment of now - briefly - I'm so much of a dreamer that I'm always looking ahead to the next moment. What's next? What can I create? What is possible?

So it would make sense that I'm ready for something new even though I've gone through tonnes of change in the last year. I've teetered on the edge of bankruptcy, almost went into foreclosure and am now working on seeing the light. I've also hated my job and with deep gratitude, have found something that I am passionate about within that same job. My daughter moved out and I lived by myself and FOR myself for the first time in my life and I've just recently shacked up. Thriving on constant change, there's a tickle on the bottoms of my feet to leap onto the next cloud of my dreamy world.

My dad reminds me that the world needs dreamers but everything comes with a cost regardless of which state of being you choose - stillness or movement. Some suggest finding balance between the two. If there's someone out there that has mastered this, please send the step by step manual and hope that I can be still enough to learn it. Remember, if you've read my blogs before, stillness = patience - and it's something that I have to re-learn time and time again.

So, is contentment a state of mind or is it a whisper of the soul to enjoy the moment while you're in it, because it could change in an instant? Who knows? I'm not content with my life (blah) -I'm happy with the excitement and ever changing tides. They are the many moments that capture the bits and pieces that make up the story of me.